1. Wasted too much time on people who don't deserve it. Honestly, I still do it. I can literally name the people in my life that probably don't deserve me wasting my time on them. I'm guilty of it almost all the time. But there are those few, you know, who you just REALLY wasted too much time on and put too much effort into. It makes me wonder what my life would be like now if I hadn't limited my options then.
2. Quit things when I was younger. I'm such a quitter sometimes. I wish I didn't quit instruments because I didn't want to practice, or dance because I didn't want to practice, or soccer when I started young because I didn't want to practice. I'm so lazy. It's awful.
3. Thrown away things I want now. Like old CDs or things I can't just buy again. That being said, I don't want to be a hoarder... so I suppose I wish I had known what NOT to throw away so that I could have those things now.
4. Told so many boyfriends that I loved them. I've never dated someone who didn't tell me that they loved me, and it's just SO awkward to not say it back. But now I wish I hadn't. I know this isn't true, but it makes me feel as if love has no meaning to me. And in some respects that might be true, but only because I feel like I've never seen love work out. But I still believe in it, so I wish I would have been more selective with the word.
5. I wish I hadn't been so close-minded and reserved as a teenager. I was very stuck in my ways and always saw my views and opinions as superior to other people's. I still have a lot of the same values as I did then, but now I realize that it's okay for people to have different values or not place such heavy emphasis as I do on mine. For example, I used to really dislike people who smoked weed. I don't know why anymore. I've never done it and still think it's a little silly, but that's never a good reason to judge other people for doing what they want. Most people are actually SURPRISED that I don't smoke weed (mostly because everyone seems to but also because apparently I seem "the type"). That's just an example, but I wish I hadn't been so uptight and close-minded about weird things in high school.
6. Fucked up my freshman year of college. Don't get me wrong - I had a blast. But it was all pretty superficial. Getting drunk every weekend is not ALL I'm about. I'm into a lot more things than that and I wish I had known then that it's okay to stay in sometimes. It's okay to want a night to yourself or to watch movies or go to sleep early just because. I wish I had concentrated on school more so I didn't have to struggle with those choices now. I was lucky to have made some of the most amazing friends in the world, though. :)
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